I could have darkened some of these in photoshop, but I wanted to leave them untouched for this post. These photos are not the most profound or conceptual, simply they are a random mix of amateurish portraits off of my first roll of Portra 160, 120 film. They are a beginning of something. Something that has to do with the love of color, tone, texture, and aura. Film to me is similar to fine press books, which has a laborious and expensive production, however the artistic intention, preservation, and process behind these books has incredible appeal to me. When I hold a fine press book of a poet that I love I can feel a thousand hand cranks, I can imagine the meticulous type setting, and possible ink streaks. Fine press books and broadsides, just like rare prints of photographs, have a museum effect on me; I’m quiet, careful, and in awe. I want to be in the club of niche artists, preservationist, and craftspeople. These people restore and build beautiful original woodwork in people’s home, these people are type setters and fine press artists, printmakers, painters, film shooters. Shooting film isn’t as intense as a hand crafted staircase, but the photographer, when shooting with medium or large format, has to slow down and be slightly more intentional than with digital cameras. I am not knocking digital, I love it and rely on it and always try to be intentional, but these photographs don’t need any post processing, I don’t have to spend hours in photoshop to get the soft, velvety tonal quality of film, because it is film!! For developing the negatives, low res scans, and film purchase I am down almost $30, however there was no post processing labor on my part. I guess now that I’m meeting my some of my goals in my business I am seeking fulfillment in other venues. I’m pulling away from wedding blog consumption, I’m trying to get my research and voyeuristic fill through all art forms. I want a portrait by Mary Ellen Mark, the painting of Earnest Ludwig Kirchner, ‘Seated Girl’, a broadside by Stanely Kunitz, or simply nature to inspire what I make on both a professional and artistic level. People first and foremost inspire me and that is why I mostly photograph people and will continue to do so. I’m starting to reach out more to strangers and ask them if I can make a photograph with them. I don’t know where this will lead, and I’m okay with that. I’m fine with just the brief and sweet interaction I have with someone who is allowing me to take their portrait. So for the love making here are some square jewels.
“The poem comes in the form of a blessing—‘like rapture breaking on the mind,’ as I tried to phrase it in my youth. Through the years I have found this gift of poetry to be life-sustaining, life-enhancing, and absolutely unpredictable. Does one live, therefore, for the sake of poetry? No, the reverse is true: poetry is for the sake of the life.” -Stanley Kunitz